Often time, when we are trying to search for happiness we go looking for someone to fulfill that emotion. We have to start looking from within first to determine the factors that are hindering ourselves from fulfilling our own happiness. I decided to go to therapy for the first time in my life a few months ago and I have to admit it was one of the best decisions I’ve made in a long time. I was really struggling with feelings of feeling alone due to me depending on others to fulfill my happiness. I started despising everyone around me and I hated going to work. I felt alone all the time and felt as if no one noticed me. I started looking at all my friends differently and I started to look at the atmosphere surrounding me. I started getting deeper into depression and I realized it was getting more serious than I ever imagined.
Depression is REAL and I honestly believe we don’t take it serious enough. I started having thoughts like “maybe I shouldn’t be here” or “no one would care if I was gone”. It was getting worse. I would see all my friends out, living there best life, and I would wonder, DANG are they really my friends? I wasn’t getting invited anywhere and I wasn’t really hearing from them. I think that became the breaking point for me so I decided to go to therapy and in therapy I found myself opening up about my feelings and thoughts that I never had the courage to do. I was always just write in my journal or pray about it but when I started losing faith and stop looking at my life as a blessing, I started seeing my life crumble piece by piece. When I did speak about my feelings, my therapist explained to me that sometimes we blame others for our unhappiness and we tend to not look from within. I was telling her how I hated everything around me and I just stopped doing things I loved to do: makeup, writing, being creative. I started having a routine: work and home. Not to go too much into my therapy sessions, what I did get out of it was in order to make myself happy, I have to become the person I am searching for. I have to be that person that I know I am and stop doubting God’s process for my life. I am an instant gratification type of person, I want to see the result now and don’t want to go through all the steps to make it happen. I have learned that the person that I am becoming might not be a good fit for everyone in my life. I can’t depend on people to treat me the same way I treat them. If cutting something or someone off to make my life more happy and content, I have to be okay with doing so.
So let’s discuss: If you have been to therapy, what were things you took away from your sessions that have made you a better person? If you haven’t been to therapy, why not? If you have a great life that you love, what is some advice you have to provide to others on how to take back their happiness?
Janea Alisha 